Now, if I were in a humorous mood, I would leave it at that and move on to posts about cats, family, and semi-deep thoughts. But I am not in that mood. So.
Wow. Very few books actually make me think, and even fewer bring me to tears while reading it. This book did both. Haha, you’re thinking, “she must be some super-emotional lump of tears,” right? Nope. I have this thing against crying, it stupid, I don’t do it unless I really feel like I need to. This book gave me a good reason to just randomly start crying; namely, that I could see how I was settling for the easy road so often, ignoring what God asked of me, trying to control my own life (its my biggest vice, I’m working on it) and buying into the myth that teens really can’t to anything until they become adults (Thank you, parents, for helping this mentality along. Much appreciated. Sheesh.) But reading the stories of all those teens, all those kids, that did make a difference, it was a shocker! Sure, there’s still my nice little stumbling block of the fact that I’m almost a cripple, but hey, at the very least, I can help my family, right?
Alright, next, the part that really had me thinking hard, was the part about beating your own expectations for yourself. Oh dear. Old habits, addictions, temptations, and most of all fear, rule me so often, and I’m just a teen, I really can’t do much. But, beating them is a “hard thing” and since life will be a heck of a lot better without them on my back… until now, I’ve been too weak to even try. The thing about all of the above… they are all things that get stuck in you. You can’t really take them away, can you? The book suggested that you can. I can? I can??? This is a very big thing to wrap my head around. Oh Lord, help me, I don’t think I can do this alone. (yes, that was a prayer, ignore… I needed to say it.) Wow. This is awesome!!!
Love to all! I shall be thinking deep thoughts all week now!!!
(P.S, Gabe, I used my stopwatch, reading the book took me 1 hour, 39 minutes, 43 seconds, cover to cover, crying time included. 😎 )